This year (2025) started with a heavy sense of being emotionally and physically overwhelmed, burned out from the busy holidays and working overtime. The job I was working at the time required me to manage my own hours, focus and productivity without providing the support I needed to maintain myself and my level of effort. I’ve always been someone who puts a lot of effort into my work and I take pride in the results, but this has often led to me being easily burned out. This job left me exhausted and I dreaded every moment of it, more than any work I’ve ever done. Before 2024 was even over I was so done with everything and wanted to sleep, to just stop existing, for a while. So, for the month of January, I called off all social engagements and deleted all social media apps, making space to care for myself. I changed my phone charging location, started a more consistent skincare routine, and made some changes to my meal prep so I wouldn't have to cook very often. And I slept, a lot. ...
Thought vomit and speculation from yours truly.